Thursday, January 27, 2011

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Soooo. So. Yeah. 

Big day tomorrow. These were Tom's words earlier today. And me, being me, was all, "Yeah, we've got school, and I'm taking Sarah to a movie at the elementary school, then we've got dinner with friends at home." And he was all, "I meant Jane." And I was all, "I know."

One year tomorrow. Crappiest anniversary ever.

We're not doing anything special to mark it. It just... I don't want to have to commemorate my daughter's death. I'd considered making a donation of toys to the hospital or library or money to the March of Dimes, but I'd rather continue doing such things on her birthday, celebrating her life in my small way. But tomorrow? January 28th? Well, screw January 28th. The most wrenching thing I've ever had to do happened on January 28th and it can go to hell.

School. Movies. Dinner with our friends. Life moving forward. That's what I want tomorrow. Since what I most want I can't have back. 

14 comments:

Tom said...

I'm with you, love. Screw January 28th. The only thing I'm celebrating tomorrow is the bravest woman to walk the face of this flat earth of ours. You. And sushi with our friends. And good wine. And laughter. And Sarah. Who is magical no matter what day it is.

Cat said...

Jane was here

Anonymous said...

Jane is still here... in Florida. And, you are still touching lives.

Sue said...

Thinking of your amazing family today. Screw January 28th, and Jane was here.
(Zinny)

Anonymous said...

Jane was here! Hugs to all of you.

AG Ambroult said...

Two things:
1. up yours, Jan 28th!
2. Jane was HERE (in a certain little house in Holbrook, MA)

Grace said...

The Challenger disaster was 25 years ago today. Clearly Jan. 28th just needs to be expunged from the calendar. Perhaps instead we could have Feb. 29 every year, and Feb. 30 in leap years?

Cate said...

Jane was here, too. Thinking of you guys, today and every day.

Angie said...

Jane was here. Wishing all of you peace and strength and healing. Screw January 28.

Anonymous said...

Jane was here.
(And, today is a terrible day)

Anonymous said...

Love you guys....xoxox.......jenny

Rowena said...

Jane was here.

gourmetmom said...

The worst day ever is right. I wish that we didnt share this commonality to the date. Enjoy your wine and sushi and ofcourse your Sarah.

Jane was here.

Cindy said...

Tom rocks, doesn't he? :)